I had a dream

I had a dream, as I’m sure many women do, that I married ‘The Rock’, Dwayne Johnson.


Then I woke up. It was a difficult morning, but it’s then that I realized, not all dreams are meant to be a reality.

As a little girl, I dreamt of being a model. At 5’11.75″ tall, age 13 and weighing in at 150lbs….that dream faded. I succumbed to walking in my small town mall shows and high school fashion shows. I shifted gears and was going to join the RCMP like my father.

At age 18, I moved to Sweden and befriended a girl who had just returned from a year off of school so she could pursue her career as a model. She was what traditionally stood for a model…5’9, maybe a buck 5 in weight….and her age was on point, she was 17. This was the closest I had ever come to the real world of modeling.

When I returned back to Canada, I left for University, where I was constantly surrounded by people saying “You’re so tall, you should model”. This was 1993. So, I took myself to a local agency whose first comment was “you need to do a photoshoot”. Now, take yourself back to the early 90’s, no cell phones, no internet, no photoshop, nada…..in order to be a model, you had to be photogenic, otherwise, there really isn’t a purpose to the whole industry.


The results were in….I WAS PHOTOGENIC! Woohoo…now there was that dreaded weight and size issue to address…but, while I was lost in my little Canadian world of school and 2 part time jobs, this division of modeling popped up called “Plus Size”…yeah..not really the route I wanted to take, the agent said I needed to gain weight and become a size 16(I was a 12 at the time). Plus, growing up the beauties that were the ‘IT’ girls,  the Claudia Schiffers, and Cindy Crawfords and Naomi Campbells, those were models….but, opportunity knocked (not how I envisioned it) and I TOOK IT!

If you’ve followed my career at all, you know that eventually I was signed to Elite Model Management, permanently moved to the US and embraced not only the plus size industry but became an advocate for self-acceptance. I’m proud to be among the founders of this industry….not all dreams are meant to be a reality. But sometimes reality turns out better than any dream…which happened in my case.

You need to be realistic, you need to be patient, you need to understand that sometimes, dreams are put into your life to show you what could be, or how high you need to set the bar. Dwayne seems like a great guy….but he’s not meant for me. If I spent all my time and energy on trying to make it happen, I would be missing out on the blessings that God does have for me, which included a 20+ year career in front of the camera and introduced me to this guy, who helped me make our 2 beautiful boys.


I’m not saying don’t dream, just be prepared to wake up and see what reality offers.


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